There is a particular kind of grief in realising that you have spent so much of yourlife trying to feel safe in the world that you have forgotten what it feels like to besafe within yourself. When you have lived through trauma, coming home to yourself is rarely a straightforward journey. It is not always a beautiful, linear process of rediscovery, nor is it as simple as peeling back the layers to reveal the person you have always been. Sometimes, those layers were never just